some kind of cosmonaut

move confidently into their midst.
Thin crust pizza? Not for me, I’m from Chicago. Rox vs. Sox, round two.  (at Section 236 Row 4 Seat 3)

Thin crust pizza? Not for me, I’m from Chicago. Rox vs. Sox, round two. (at Section 236 Row 4 Seat 3)

Rox vs. Sox. Last game with #lamarcus.  (at Section 309 Row 1 Seat 12)

Rox vs. Sox. Last game with #lamarcus. (at Section 309 Row 1 Seat 12)

It begins.  (at Section 153 Row 7 Seat 5)

It begins. (at Section 153 Row 7 Seat 5)

Temporal Resonance

A brief spin backwards in time…

This girl I liked, Jayne, gone now save for an outdated college address in south Boulder…that time we went bowling and I foolishly did not invite her back to my apartment…

The person I was back then is mostly gone, and for the better. New iterations will continue to replace expired software and hopefully each upgrade will bring more awareness and clarity of thought. Old journals were mostly mindless riffs, though a few gems were uncovered, signs of knowledge that made me happy to be me for a minute. 

My current penmanship reminds me of letters/lyrics found in the attic. Am I an echo? A bounceback of someone else, slightly distorted from the original.

If I had a sibling, how close would we be now? At some point you create a life for yourself and the structures that were in place are reformed and rearranged…time to move on.

Fragments of a dream…at the bottom of a small, circular lake, not shallow but tremendously deep…pulled to the bottom by a creature, unseen in the icy grey water…back at the surface, aware of bears…a cougar in the neighborhood, spotted as it leapt into an old woman’s minivan…somehow she remains unhurt.

Preened-up business men with the same haircut and slacks, expensive watch, casual leather jacket, casual leather shoes, oversized smart phone with Sharper Image case.

The dog grew old, the dog died, the dog was mourned and the dog was forgotten. New dogs are always an option.

Frigid grey giants.

Frigid grey giants.

Youth Soccer / The Worst Quesadilla

A $7 beer is worth it at 30,000 feet, if you have the funds to spare. I do not fall into the latter category but that doesn’t necessarily exclude me from the former.

Go home broke, my motto for many years now. Harder to do since a fateful excursion to Texas years ago, though it can still happen without much effort on my part. 

Not as cold as it should be, the beer, and not as warm as it could be. I could buy a sixer of this brew for $7, a fact that doesn’t sway decisions at high altitude. 

Still, I sip slowly, let the liquid slosh around, my tongue awash in pale ale.

The pockets of my grey woolen shirt are uncomfortably full, a byproduct of our culture of corporate manipulation; $25 for a carry-on bag, even if it fits under your seat.

I can see the board meeting now, the slightly-overweight CEO with poorly died hair (an attempt to disguise fifty strands of grey) laying out the master plan:

1) mishandle, mistreat, and misuse checked bags

2) lose customers’ trust in your ability to check bags

3) convince customers that carry-on luggage is the way to go

4) charge for carry-on luggage

Shit, even the flight crew is selling something, the Captain’s calm voice not announcing our cruising altitude but pitching a credit card that will earn you that trip to Cabo you never wanted. A good time for a child to wail away in a register usually reserved for calling dogs…

Of course the plane is packed to the gills with pre-teen adolescent athletes, a traveling soccer team or something equally worthless, all of them hyped up on Wendy’s and Poweraide, each no doubt imagining the day when a chartered flight will transport them between World Cup matches.

It occurs to me that every passenger in front of me is transfixed by the small, single serving television screen lodged into each seatback. Like moths drawn to late night porch lights by some primitive instinct, my planemates stare forward, unblinking, into the digital depths of the inflight sample broadcast. 

I close my eyes for a minute and imagine drifting off to sleep, waking up post-crash in the snow encrusted mountains four miles below. 

How would I survive? Between my over-stuffed wool shirt and light jacket stowed under my seat (in lieu of carry-on bag, of course) I would most likely die of exposure before the rescue team reached the wreckage. 

That assumption is reliant on surviving the crash, which is highly unlikely. So I think ‘is this how I want to die?’ Mildly intoxicated and stuffed between two unremarkably middle-aged men?

Sure, why not.

Feeling good about this one.  (at King Street)

Feeling good about this one. (at King Street)

My grandma is a badass. Born in 1922, she’s seen all there is to see. If I’ve inherited a fraction of the strength, courage, and voracious appetite for life that she possesses then I’ll be set. #wanda #yolo #92  (at Freedom Inn at Scottsdale)

My grandma is a badass. Born in 1922, she’s seen all there is to see. If I’ve inherited a fraction of the strength, courage, and voracious appetite for life that she possesses then I’ll be set. #wanda #yolo #92 (at Freedom Inn at Scottsdale)

Westward ho.  (at Phoenix Public Market)

Westward ho. (at Phoenix Public Market)

Rough morning at the office. #TPSreports #island #sendsday

Rough morning at the office. #TPSreports #island #sendsday

Feet and feathers. #deadbird #crowsfeet

Feet and feathers. #deadbird #crowsfeet

Mysteries abound. #denver

Mysteries abound. #denver

.71 since Day One. #dunlop #gatorgrip (at King Street)

.71 since Day One. #dunlop #gatorgrip (at King Street)

"Shrouded in the woven branches of wood…wrought in tangled webs, a seamless tapestry of leaves." (at King Street)

"Shrouded in the woven branches of wood…wrought in tangled webs, a seamless tapestry of leaves." (at King Street)

The Palm

Think for a minute about the places you’ve been…the things you have seen and heard and felt…the people you have met…think about the influence you have felt from those situations and how much you owe outside experience for who you are…

Sometimes a person helps you understand a situation and sometimes a situation helps you understand a person. Both scenarios are equally valuable.

It is important to take a minute and reflect on significant experiences…appreciation is the key to understanding…and whether good or bad, unique moments are what make this life tolerable…

Tonight we had a staff party at a ritzy downtown steakhouse. Though I sat with those I am already well acquainted with, it was good to be surrounded by people who share similar desires and it was nice to look around and see a room filled with more friends than could fit at one table.

I am fortunate to know so many amazing individuals, and I believe that as long as you surround yourself with positive influences nothing but good times await.

Here’s to the good times…